Last few years were so unfortunate that it keeps me awake even today. Sometimes I just feel like punishing myself really hard for accepting the apology but not denying to trust again. Deep down I already knew that I was just the object of desire, that people really liked me for a thousand reasons and all of them wanted to walk with me when the sun sets. So let’s agree to disagree because I either keep it all inside as silence is the best reply to a shock or tell exactly how I feel with no filter. I’m really sorry for the mean, awful and accurate things I might say because I was always told that be everyone’s friend but nobody’s fool but I just got caught, maybe I chose the darkness.
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Hey, silvered-tongued devils, y’ll gotta protect yourself ’cause I ain’t gonna be there but karma.
Hey, opportunists, I know y’ll really need me but find another prey I ain’t got time anymore.
Hey, zany devils, I’ve realized my fault too early and in the end we all die alone.
Devil, when I had angel inside me I found one in you too.
I let my hand hold thine.
When I had the crowd looking for mine.
Close your eyes and remember the past time.
You’ll see why today my heart is ravine.
Wasn’t ever attached to you
Yet felt estranged.
Too old at heart to get hurt
You are replaceable, it’s a no brainer.
Continue reading “Deals With The Devil”
There was a time when Grandpa used to wake me up before the sounds of Church bells but now when I look back I keep crawling on my bed all day. Maybe because life is not so interesting and as I’m an adult there’s nobody responsible for my irresponsibility.
Gone are the days when we used to go on a long morning walk and talk about almost every eye-catching objects that crossed our way but now even five minutes with someone force me to talk about this stressful life and maturity. It was the time when I used to believe that singing Rain Rain Go Away will really stop the rain and Santa Claus does exist. The time when Mom used to award me five rupees for completing my homework and I used to by ten “not so tasty” candies only because the quantity was more. Continue reading “The Times We Had.”
Everybody for once or twice in their life, must’ve gone through those days when we do not want to share our pain because it feels like we’re mocking ourselves. We listen to motivational and inspirational speeches but it never really works. When we want to enjoy but we get overwhelmed.
When they come to us whenever they need our help and for the rest of the time we are left all alone. When we are understanding and our fellas behaves as if they need a chance to prove us wrong, to make us feel like it’s always our mistake.
When slowly and then gradually the pearls comes out of the thread.
When memories are stains.
When silence is a shield.
When tomorrow is a fear.
When beauty seems fake and ugliness attracts.
When we are the most negative person filled with questions.
when we want to live but we just can’t help it.
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Like every fellow human beings my life has centered around the wish to find happiness. I always wanted that perfect someone in my life. Here to confess, I’ve never respected the precious love which I already have, of course, my mother. I lost my father at an early age and for some reasons Continue reading “‘Cause they’ll be there forever.”