Posted in Begin again., Embracing the pain of separation, Fight back, Something real, Soothing struggles

Felt Like A Fool

Last few years were so unfortunate that it keeps me awake even today. Sometimes I just feel like punishing myself really hard for accepting the apology but not denying to trust again. Deep down I already knew that I was just the object of desire, that people really liked me for a thousand reasons and all of them wanted to walk with me when the sun sets. So let’s agree to disagree because I either keep it all inside as silence is the best reply to a shock or tell exactly how I feel with no filter. I’m really sorry for the mean, awful and accurate things I might say because I was always told that be everyone’s friend but nobody’s fool but I just got caught, maybe I chose the darkness.

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Posted in Begin again., Fight back, Something real, Soothing struggles

Deals With The Devil

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Hey, silvered-tongued devils, y’ll gotta protect yourself ’cause I ain’t gonna be there but karma.

Hey, opportunists, I know y’ll really need me but find another prey I ain’t got time anymore.

Hey, zany devils, I’ve realized my fault too early and in the end we all die alone.

Devil, when I had angel inside me I found one in you too.

I let my hand hold thine.

When I had the crowd looking for mine.

Close your eyes and remember the past time.

You’ll see why today my heart is ravine.

Wasn’t ever attached to you

Yet felt estranged.

Too old at heart to get hurt

You are replaceable, it’s a no brainer.

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Posted in Life partner be like, Looking for love?

Where The Heart Is Happy-I

Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different.

You meet this person throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something.

And sometimes the greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The one that sweep you off your feet and challenge every fairy tale you’ve ever read.

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Posted in Embracing the pain of separation

Leftovers

Hello readers, let’s go purple (you can google it’s significance.)

Ever went through heartbreak or have been insulted?

Fought low self esteem?

How easy it is for some people to break down your heart, to instigate you to deliberately hurt yourself.

Somewhere down that thin line it was always needed. Wonder you, your heart is scientifically the strongest organ that never rests, it remains alive even when you die. How can someone really break it?

You allowed.

Is it really worth it?

The tables have turned I ain’t making an effort ’cause I ain’t your leftover.

It’s interesting you came back but I was a kid and I’d say for one last time, one for you. Ain’t sure I loved you anyway. Continue reading “Leftovers”

Posted in Wishing for real love?

Had It Been A Fairytale

“I want a girl who doesn’t know she’s beautiful, so I have an excuse to let her know that she is all the time”- Zayn Malik

Life is brutal. People change but you’ll always be you so never sacrifice who you are for anyone. I’ve never judged people on any criteria whenever I come across someone who feel he/she is ugly I make them believe that actually how beautiful they are and how irrelevant it is to bother yourself with a thought that will eventually fade away with its existence. As they say, “beauty lies in the eyes of beholder.” The one who’s going to stay life long with you will touch your soul and not just face. People are different, they think differently and all those who wander aren’t lost. Continue reading “Had It Been A Fairytale”

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Even Blood Couldn’t Bind Us

I love chess and honestly nobody till now with whom I’ve played this game has ever defeated me the only person who did is my younger brother because I taught him the tactics to play this game.

I wasn’t from those lucky elder sisters who got to see their brother’s childhood. Our circumstances had separated us for eight years and he never really recognized me during our early childhood days. After our father’s death, we moved together with our Mom to a different place and we were still kids. Continue reading “Even Blood Couldn’t Bind Us”

Posted in Begin again.

Twenty Eight Days Of Love

Baby, I always wanted you by my side. You were always there wiping my tears.

When you found I was unhappy you called me and started singing those 90’s songs and made me laugh. Baby, you made me believe in fairytale.

We watched those new released English songs together and dedicated to each other. I was in seventh heaven when you proposed me singing ‘Let Me’, by Zayn Malik.

And you said it was for the rest of our life. Continue reading “Twenty Eight Days Of Love”

Posted in Happiness

The Heart Does Go On

“I’m lucky that I found what I love early in life and made it happen I have no regrets that I’m gonna die too soon”- Steve jobs.

Life is a not a game of being good at something which is not yours it’s a journey of searching the talent which is already within you. Who wants to die being unnamed? yes, that’s scary but who wants to die living someone else’s life? Don’t you want this? Don’t you think your life would’ve been different when no one else would’ve been watching you? Continue reading “The Heart Does Go On”

Posted in Savagery

Being Unapologetic

The time was off? I was drunk? I was provoked? No, I was living it and I’m unapologetic.

I loved you. You mocked my feelings. I moved on. Wait! if I loved you how can I move on so easily? But I did. I’m unapologetic.

I was having a bad day. You were annoying, I didn’t mean it? I’m unapologetic.

I couldn’t help you because I couldn’t help myself. I should’ve been there but I wasn’t. I’m unapologetic.

I had a bad childhood. My experiences in life have never tasted sweet. Why don’t I keep crying over it? I’m over it. I’m unapologetic.

Why didn’t I tell anyone? I’m running my race, living my part and I didn’t find anyone worthy enough. I’m unapologetic.

I pretend to be busy. I love being portrayed as a workaholic. I’m ignoring your messages and phone calls? I’m unapologetic.

I believe in women having curves, walking so mean, smokey-eyed. Society didn’t approve. I’m unapologetic.

I stand with the truth so even if my beloved is wrong at some point, baby, I’m unapologetic.

If I do something which you consider “shameful”, it’s okay I ain’t hiding the truth, I don’t like mask, I’m unapologetic.

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